About me: I am a male recent high school graduate, now at junior college and living at home. My reasons for seeking enlistment are hard to put into words, but I'll try. Since starting college I have been drifting away from everyday life, and no longer looking forward to my future, from going away to a university and beyond.
I am already somewhat engaged in my community, and some of what I do makes a difference to a few people, but still feels like less than what I should be doing. Middle class life all seems shallow and pointless to me; I know this should sound laughable to anyone actually doing service, but as a civilian the military seems more real than anything else I know. We spend all day dwelling about pointless things, and never get anything done.
I know I'm just a spoiled kid talking about things I don't understand, so feel free to say so. I've always thought my life was too easy, not too hard so I want something more. I've pondered which branch I would join ever since my friends in high school were getting ready to serve, and I would probably enlist after I got my AA. I am worried about my mom, who has always shielded me from the military, and would be destroyed if I enlisted. When I think about it, that's the only thing keeping me from going through with it.
I hope this is the right place for asking this.