I’m tired. I feel like I’m suffocating. All I want to do is ETS. I hate my job. I’m tired of always being bitched at. I hate that I have to use my weekends to catch up on work because people are always constantly coming in and half the time it’s something that could of been taken care with their first line. Being a S1 NCOIC has got to be one of the worst jobs ever. I’m sorry if you think we are fucking off. Well in my shop we are constantly drowning. It’s extremely hard to get a good amount of things done when you’re taking care of 700 people and it’s only one soldier, your NCO and yourself. I’m tired of the phone calls from 1SGs. Sorry troop let me pause updating your stuff because I have to do this for a 1SG. Sorry, bro let me stop what I’m doing again, because I have to go to a PLT SGT meeting. A 1SG just strolls in my office when I already have someone, “Yes 1SG, how can I help you?” Okay let me take another ten minutes to do something for a 1SG. Wow, look at that it’s already lunch time and I barely got anything done! Oh great we got released, shit that’s a phone call from someone who needs their shit updated now! Please, don’t ask me how I’m doing sir, I hate it here and you are the reason why I can’t leave just yet. Hmm, who is calling me on my way home? I’ll ignore it. Well they’re calling again, must be urgent. Ha, look at that, it’s not! Believe it or not. I’m not a walking tracker! My CSM is going to see if I can get moved to a HR company. I hope so, because I’m tired of having stress, anxiety and mental break downs over paper work. I don’t care if it would be considered a downgrade to be moved to a HR company. I just want to be happy. It’s gotten to the point where I sleep way more and eat less the day before work because the anxiety just kicks in. I hope I can get a BH appointment soon.