I don’t know where to start . I just want to be happy . I’m stuck in between taking a short tour and declining it and reaping the consequences of it. I love my family but I feel like I need to love myself too. For a person that sacrifices so much to try to make other smile, I’m left with the short end of the stick . From completing adapt twice to having the most rewarding time in my career these past 4 months I now am approaching a deadline that could potentially break my marriage in half . I understand the pros and cons of taking the short tour and potentially getting our dream home and a place my children can grow up and call home , in comparison to not taking the assignment being stressed out even more for the last 6 months at my current base . What should I do ? I feel powerless .